Writing

It's been more than 4 years and I decided to start blogging all over again. Saying start all over but not making a brand new page, why? The question popped up. When I had a look at my old writings, I realized I was real happy back then. Though people would say it "alay ", I would rather call it "gone mad". Yes, we were mad back then. And happy. Period. So I was left with no reason to delete it.

I stopped writing those "gone mad" things just after less than one month I made the blog. Oh, yes, I was so lack of consistency. I had no strong willpower. And it continuous, still.

I can't write. I barely make my mind up and speak my thoughts up. That was what I told myself and people a lot this whole time. The anomaly is, when I read a writing (friends' essay, body email, messages, etcetera), in english particularly, many times I thought that the writing should be this way, not that way, or the sentence is better like this, not like that. So, I was thinking, why don't  I make the writing myself?

The opportunity came on the day the company I work in was welcoming it’s 6th anniversary. Many competitions were held during the pre-event, one of them is essay writing competition. We had around 15 days to prepare and submit the essay. I searched for references right away after being informed the theme for essay. I was on fire. I searched for journals, papers, market researches, and so on. I read them, made a writing framework, and tried to develop it. At the time I reached about 200 words (it was supposed to be 1000-1500 words), I stucked. I lost words. I didn’t know what to write anymore. “It’s not working. This isn’t for me”, the whisper approached.

But I convinced myself that I was last-minute-person, so, yes, it would take a while for my brain to generate ideas. I shoud have taken it slow. I decided to give my brain a break for.................... almost two weeks! Yes, I ended up sleeping late to work my essay out on the very night before the submission day. I even still did it at office at working hours to finalize the essay and give a final touch of eye-catchy title. I Eventually submitted it exactly 2 hours before the due date. Hafyuuuh

I was quite satisfied with my writing. And frankly speaking, I put a big hope in there. On the day the judge called me to inform that I was the 1st winner, I yelled at heart “I know it!”. Don’t take me wrong, I didn’t mean I’d say I know I was gonna be the winner. I mean I’d say I know my writing is good not that bad.

A friend of mine knew this story and I told her I’m gaining confident in writing right now. And I want to practice my writing (and my english not to mention). She suggested me to write a blog. I did, actually. Long loooong time ago. And it ended up on hiatus. I don’t think this one will work either. But giving it a second try wouldn’t be a sin.

So, let’s start the practice for only God knows how long :p

P.S: if you're curious about my essay, go visit here.